IF and the City

I used to feel sad when I watched the episodes with Charlotte failing over and over again while trying to get pregnant. Little did I know that my own attempts would lead me on the same sad journey. We've now passed 4 years in the trenches. 6 failed IVF/ICSI cycles = nothing. Time for something new - donor eggs. Success at last. Now for round 2.

Saturday, November 29, 2008


This morning ... negative.

Had that feeling it wasn't to be the other day.

Beta on Monday, will try and go again straight away if possible. Feel good about that actually. They're going to culture my embies this time. I have no idea what that means? This time I might put 2 back (if I have them).

Beta still on Monday. Is there any point? Guess so - the clinic needs to conclude the cycle officially.

Monday, November 24, 2008

New Thing

So my blood test this morning revealed that my progesterone is low = 21.

Apparently this is nothing to be concerned about at this stage ... as if ... will not affect a potential pregnancy ... I have no idea.

I told her I hadn't put my morning's messary in - since I was going to the clinic early - but she reckons that wouldn't have affected my results.

Soooo, I am to up my messaries to 3 x daily now.

Kinda taken the wind out of my sails ...

BTW, my beta isn't till next Monday.

Monday, November 17, 2008

Transfer ..

Well we transferred ... our 2nd embie did much better and had only lost 1 cell, had stabilised, no fragmentation. Looked pretty good on the screen.

Transfer was quick and without incident.

This is not the ideal transfer in terms of being a blastocyst, but it's good enough for me to feel hopeful. I'm proof positive that transferring hatching blasts is no guarantee of a positive result (umm try 3 or 4 with my own embies).

I asked the scientist and doctor ...'do many women get pregnant with embies like these?', 'lots, we wouldn't transfer if we didn't'. Good.

Passed a million pregnant women on my way ... lucky them.

BAD Update

In this gig, apparently from the point of thaw, not hearing anything is what you want.

We got a call at 7am this morning ...

Our embie fused back to 2-cells overnight instead of continuing to divide. Exactly the wrong thing.

Sooo, we now move to thawing another ...

There will be no update from here on in, we will find out how things have gone when we get to the clinic.

Of course Mr. S says all the wrong things - firstly - 'well shouldn't we be waiting overnight again?' and 'it'll all be alright, don't worry'.

Empty meaningless words - why are men SO STUPID????

This is all a sickening flashback to our last cycle - all our embies going nuts ... ugh I have that nauseous, pins and needles feeling that comes with anxiety.


Sunday, November 16, 2008

Small BIG update

Embryo has thawed, transfer going ahead tomorrow as planned.

That leaves us 24 hours ... embryo should continue to divide IF WE'RE LUCKY.

Have no idea at this point if it was the first embryo they tried to thaw, or if it took more than one.

This period of time feels like the waiting time to find out about fertilisation!

The drive to the clinic will be nerve-wracking!

Friday, November 14, 2008

Good to Go!

Scan this morning showed endometrium at 8.5 with the triple stripe ... apparently good to go!

Just got a (missed) call and the clinic nurse says I'm to start the messaries tonight and come in on Monday for transfer at 1.15pm!

I've rung back for more details ... when do you start thawing ... what if this ... what if that ... I've never done a frozen transfer before!

...How come I'm going to be transferring on my Day 13??? Is this because I've been sniffin' and therefore my cycle doesn't need to be matched up??? I don't know the answers to any of these things ... I thought my embie is to match a regular ovulation and fertilisation?????

I am only going to be transferring 1, that decision is made.

Lord how can a veteran of sooo may cycles ... be such a novice when it comes to a frozen transfer????

Hey - guess I'm a newbie!

Thursday, November 06, 2008

Day 2.

So officially FET cycle is underway.

I've been sniffing syna*rel since the 28th, ugh!

On Sunday I start on the progy*nova, and next Friday go into the clinic for a scan to check my lining.

I've been seeing the Alternative Fertility Goddess for the past few weeks and she's telling me that everything is okley dokley.