IF and the City

I used to feel sad when I watched the episodes with Charlotte failing over and over again while trying to get pregnant. Little did I know that my own attempts would lead me on the same sad journey. We've now passed 4 years in the trenches. 6 failed IVF/ICSI cycles = nothing. Time for something new - donor eggs. Success at last. Now for round 2.

Tuesday, December 30, 2008

Getting Ready

For our next transfer.

In the meantime Christmas was very nice. Very nice to be able to enjoy the food and a few drinks without worrying. Lovely to have BabyG in our lives and to have that joy of spending Christmas with your child.

Such a painful time for many, my memories are still there of those feelings from the past.

But I'm getting very nervous and scared in the lead up to our next transfer. My fears of it not working again, my fears that somehow it's all my fault, somehow my body is not allowing these embies to implant.

In an effort to get my body in optimum shape, and try and get a handle on the stress, I've been to see a new acupuncturist. I love her. She was largely chosen due to her handy proximity to my home in a lovely Nature Centre. Also, since the CFG 'to the stars' told me that what she did was nothing special, I believe her. I also believe that dealing with immune issues, and infertility is at the heart of TCM. My new lady confirmed that.

She's young, but been practising since 2001. Her acupuncture was a revelation. For one thing it wasn't the 20min. special I became used to. Also, she did acu all over my back. I've never had that before. My usual diagnosis/weakness was that I have weak kidney's. She prodded that point on my back 'yeeeeesssh that's sensitive' I told her. Then acu on my tummy followed by some mini moxi's. I floated out of the centre with another appointment booked for next week.

She also thinks I should have some sessions with chinese massage intermittently. Not a bad idea.

Not quite sure if it's a direct result - but my energy in the last few days has been awesome. I'm getting things done that have been hanging around a while.

Next, waiting on my period.

Tuesday, December 02, 2008

Official

Officially negative.

The clinic says that my chances are good with the 3 great embryos we have. The nurse said that we've gotten pregnant with these embryos before so it will happen again.

Unfortunately no transfer in the near future. Due to my period not starting, (due to having to stay on the messaries waiting on my beta!) I will not get in before the Xmas closures.

So another wait for me.

Star can't understand why we haven't had any luck yet. Who knows? Is it bad luck?

I haven't found out any more information on the 'culturing of embryos' that will be done next time. Guess I have time to google it.