IF and the City

I used to feel sad when I watched the episodes with Charlotte failing over and over again while trying to get pregnant. Little did I know that my own attempts would lead me on the same sad journey. We've now passed 4 years in the trenches. 6 failed IVF/ICSI cycles = nothing. Time for something new - donor eggs. Success at last. Now for round 2.

Friday, February 27, 2009


Soooo, no more phone calls.

Legs in stirrups ...

Scientist advises 'no cells lost or any fragmentation - embryo much better than last one'.

Transfer is quick and easy.

Nagging doubts ... cells hadn't started dividing again.

Scientist says 'it's fine, normal'.
This is the embryo from a 26yo egg(!) Has to be in with a good shot ... right?

Let's see.

Acupuncture followed straight after. All the i's dotted and t's crossed.

Nagging doubts ...

Wednesday, February 25, 2009

Busy... busy

Keeping busy here in th' city ...

Even so ...

Missed a call first thing this morning ... scientist ringing to tell me everything was good and they'd see me tomorrow early afternoon. Call back if I need to know anything.

Not in a million years am I calling back.

In the park late this afternoon I hear my phone ringing and manage to pick it up just as its gone to voicemail 'unknown caller' READ: SCIENTIST FROM THE LAB

Cold sweats ... life has suddenly gone slo-mo ... flashbacks to last thaw and the call first thing in the morning: EMBRYO ARRESTED.

Breath ... HURRY UP F***** MESSAGE ...

So then ... scientist calling to check that I knew I was coming in tomorrow for my transfer. No further information.

Quickly call clinic - of course - receptionist has already scarpered for the day and the message is switched on.

Now will have to call first thing in the morning.

Tuesday, February 24, 2009

Back Again

So here we are.

Following our cancelled cycle, following our cancelled cycle, we are now in the midst of an active cycle.

Day 11 - after 8 days progy*nova and a few weeks of syna*rel, yesterday morning I had a scan. Lining 'perfect' translated to: 9C I *think* she said. So 9mm and the triple stripe??

Yesterday afternoon I was told transfer would be Thursday.

I checked with the nurse - 'we're not thawing all remaining embryos and going for blast are we?'
'No, that would have had to have been discussed and agreed upon'.

Yep that's the decision we made - thaw one at a time. I'd have to be put in a medically-induced coma to get thru thawing all three and seeing what happens going to blast.

I have no idea when they thaw the first one ... I'm trying not to think about it.