IF and the City

I used to feel sad when I watched the episodes with Charlotte failing over and over again while trying to get pregnant. Little did I know that my own attempts would lead me on the same sad journey. We've now passed 4 years in the trenches. 6 failed IVF/ICSI cycles = nothing. Time for something new - donor eggs. Success at last. Now for round 2.

Wednesday, May 20, 2009

Ahhh yes about posting

Hello blog, you hideous timeline of my misery.

Yes I have been deliberately ignoring you. I think I am now blaming you for all my failures.

Here's a quick update of what I refused to tell you about about in more detail:

2 embies thawed
3-cell increased to 4-cells and 4-cell increased to 6-cells at time of transfer
2WW ... many symptoms real and/or imagined
F***ing negative

Yes blog, it's all your fault that I am now left without any current chance of providing BabyG with a sibling.

Here I am thinking we are putting ourselves in an ideal position and all goes to sh*t.

Guess what? Star has offered to get onboard again with whatever we want to do.

Well blog, I am yet to decide if I will keep you in the loop. I have much to do, many investigations, lots of decisions to make.

I would, however, welcome any feedback to this current situation.


At May 21, 2009 4:41 am , Blogger Luann said...

I am so so very sorry. I know what you mean about blaming your blog for your failures. I've blamed mine as well for my miscarriages. Seems like every time I post about being pregnant, I lose it. I don't post much AT ALL, but personally I'm going to use mine to vent my frustration. And I'd hate to see you go away for good.

At May 21, 2009 10:47 pm , Blogger andi said...

Hi my dear - thanks for your thoughts and sorry to hear the last fet didn't bloody work.

My doc is Mark Livingstone - I love him.

Great that Star is keen to go again... I know what you mean about the blog - I was almost not going to mention my current attempt as well.

At May 22, 2009 4:45 am , Blogger Lut C. said...

I'm sorry to hear you had a negative.

You didn't blog, doesn't that prove the blog is not to blame?

If blogging is no longer helping, then quitting is the thing to do. Not that I would want to encourage you to quit. My curiosity on what happens next is too great.

Are you thinking of turning Star down?

At May 22, 2009 8:56 am , Blogger Sparkle said...

Andi, Thanks so much. Huge coincidence I rang to get an appt. with him yesterday ... nothing till August!!! Big congratulations to you btw.
Lut, I realised my contradictory rationale with my blog ... non-artistic license ;-)
I feel like I'm in a 'blog-void' where I'm not sure who I relate to anymore apart from a few like yourself - where we have shared the journey for so long and are in similar places ... having trouble getting the 2nd. I know 'b-v' non-artistic license again!

At May 24, 2009 2:56 am , Blogger andi said...

Thanks for the betabase info - I have looked at it before but never realised you can click on the actual dpo and see who got what - as it were. DOH!!

It has made me feel a little better.

Funny about Mark - he is worth the wait and his receptionist woman is really lovely and has always put me on a waiting list and a couple of times I have seen him much sooner than appointment.


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