IF and the City

I used to feel sad when I watched the episodes with Charlotte failing over and over again while trying to get pregnant. Little did I know that my own attempts would lead me on the same sad journey. We've now passed 4 years in the trenches. 6 failed IVF/ICSI cycles = nothing. Time for something new - donor eggs. Success at last. Now for round 2.

Wednesday, July 04, 2007

Moving On

It’s been a week since my dad’s funeral.

Unfortunately all the well-intended advice was true. When he did eventually pass away, it was a horrible shock. I never believed that something we had been anticipating for more than 8 weeks could still be a shock. The only thing I can think of is that life adapts along the way into a strange place where terminal illness becomes part of everyday life. Then it ends and there’s nothing there to take it’s place.

A funeral is a great farewell – sad and sometimes hard – a necessary moment in time.

Then life goes on.

This isn’t a concept any of us are unfamiliar with – those ‘us’ that have been dealing with IF and the wretchedness that often accompanies failed cycles and miscarriage/s – while life rolls merrily along for everyone else.

Both Mr. S and I also managed to pick up stinking colds along the way, so that our days on return were spent staring at Wimble.don match replays.

A surprise at my recent Ob appt. – ‘no weight gain this month’ the nurse said.

I really think she’s reading the scales wrong – I don’t think she waits for the needle to stop moving.

On the other hand, I’ve never really been sure about my weight in recent years due to back to back IVF cycles. So what my real starting weight was is somewhere within 2-3 kilos.

‘It’s not a problem’ the doctor reassured me ‘as long as the bump is growing’.

Okay then.

Because it is.


At July 04, 2007 4:46 pm , Blogger Patience said...

Sparkle, I'm sorry. No matter how 'expected' death is - it does nothing to make it hurt any less...

Thinking of you xxx

At July 04, 2007 5:39 pm , Anonymous Nina said...

I am so sorry to for the loss of your dad. It is so difficult to loose someone close and oen can't really "prepare" for the shock.

I am glad though to read that the bump is growing. That's wonderful :-)

At July 05, 2007 6:50 am , Blogger Lut C. said...

I haven't been in your shoes, I can only imagine how you're feeling right now. I'm sorry for your loss.

Good to hear the doctor was reassuring.

At July 05, 2007 2:40 pm , Blogger millie said...

I'm so very very sorry for your loss. Even though you've been through a lot in the past couple of months, even though you knew it was coming, it's still a huge loss.

I hope you and Mr Sparkle get over your colds very soon. And that the bump continues to grow.

At July 06, 2007 6:38 am , Blogger Summer said...

I'm sorry. Death is difficult no matter how it happens.

You and your family are all in my thoughts.

At July 06, 2007 7:30 am , Blogger Carol said...

so sorry about the loss of our dad. I hope you're doing ok. and glad to hear that the bump is growing.

At July 07, 2007 10:45 am , Blogger Mony said...

Oh Sparkle. Even though I knew this news was coming it still caught me off guard. Sigh.
I am sorry sweetheart. It has certainly been an emotionally draining & sad time for you.
Peace to your Dad.
You take care of yourself (and the growing bump)xxxx


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