Embryo Onboard

Scared.

We transferred 1 great 4-cell embryo, and everything went smoothly.

Our doctor will only allow us to transfer one, due to Star’s age.

Right now we still have 3 x 4-cell embryos and 2 x 3-cell embryos that are being watched until tomorrow to see if they will be frozen.

The scientist wouldn’t guarantee me anything – she said 50% chance.

I’m scared because this is where we always ended up on our own cycles. I’d be getting a ‘great embryo’ transferred then being told to wait till tomorrow to see if any of the rest were good enough to be frozen.

‘But we’re really hoping we’d get some frozen’ I said to both the doctor and the scientist.
‘Well it’s up to the embryos’
‘But, I can’t help compare myself when I was cycling, and my much older embryos and hope that we have a better chance with these’.
‘We’ll let you know tomorrow’.

When I called Glamour Nurse to let her know, because she needs to send me an extra script for the Prog*nova, I told her all my fears.

‘Well when will they decide?’ she said.
‘They want to watch and make sure the embryos don’t fragment too much before they’ll decide. I'm scared that if we don't get any frozen, I’ll wish I'd had two transferred, I’m also scared that if none get frozen, it’ll feel like it did with my own eggs’.

I’m scared that if none are frozen, it’ll mean the one I’ve had transferred will also not have good embryo energy (like my old ones).

Meanwhile Star and Mr. S both say they have a ‘good feeling’.

So, from yesterday, a day of almost dizzying glorious excitement to today, where I'm dreading getting bad news tomorrow, my journey continues.

Bloody hell I'm just in that mood to have a whinge - Boxing Day BBQ invite just received - that's the day after Christmas those of you in the US ;-), wtf is putting 'family friendly' on the message about?! The next invite I send out I might add 'Single, Gay & Infertile Friendly'.