IF and the City

I used to feel sad when I watched the episodes with Charlotte failing over and over again while trying to get pregnant. Little did I know that my own attempts would lead me on the same sad journey. We've now passed 4 years in the trenches. 6 failed IVF/ICSI cycles = nothing. Time for something new - donor eggs. Success at last. Now for round 2.

Wednesday, December 20, 2006

Embryo Onboard

Scared.

We transferred 1 great 4-cell embryo, and everything went smoothly.

Our doctor will only allow us to transfer one, due to Star’s age.

Right now we still have 3 x 4-cell embryos and 2 x 3-cell embryos that are being watched until tomorrow to see if they will be frozen.

The scientist wouldn’t guarantee me anything – she said 50% chance.

I’m scared because this is where we always ended up on our own cycles. I’d be getting a ‘great embryo’ transferred then being told to wait till tomorrow to see if any of the rest were good enough to be frozen.

‘But we’re really hoping we’d get some frozen’ I said to both the doctor and the scientist.
‘Well it’s up to the embryos’
‘But, I can’t help compare myself when I was cycling, and my much older embryos and hope that we have a better chance with these’.
‘We’ll let you know tomorrow’.

When I called Glamour Nurse to let her know, because she needs to send me an extra script for the Prog*nova, I told her all my fears.

‘Well when will they decide?’ she said.
‘They want to watch and make sure the embryos don’t fragment too much before they’ll decide. I'm scared that if we don't get any frozen, I’ll wish I'd had two transferred, I’m also scared that if none get frozen, it’ll feel like it did with my own eggs’.

I’m scared that if none are frozen, it’ll mean the one I’ve had transferred will also not have good embryo energy (like my old ones).

Meanwhile Star and Mr. S both say they have a ‘good feeling’.

So, from yesterday, a day of almost dizzying glorious excitement to today, where I'm dreading getting bad news tomorrow, my journey continues.

Bloody hell I'm just in that mood to have a whinge - Boxing Day BBQ invite just received - that's the day after Christmas those of you in the US ;-), wtf is putting 'family friendly' on the message about?! The next invite I send out I might add 'Single, Gay & Infertile Friendly'.

4 Comments:

At December 21, 2006 4:29 am , Blogger Hopeful Mother said...

Congrats on being "with embryo." I hope your 2ww goes quickly and ends with the BEST news.

Let's hope your embryo and the others keep on growing and growing!

 
At December 21, 2006 5:56 am , Blogger Lut said...

I'm rooting for your little embryo.

I so hope some make it to the freezer, but also you won't be needing them any time soon.


Family friendly? Bring fertility blanking goggles

 
At December 21, 2006 8:01 am , Blogger Margo said...

Congrats on your transfer. I hope that your others hang on for the freeze. Thinking of you!

 
At December 21, 2006 9:35 am , Blogger suzzcq70 said...

Congrats! Your embie sounds perfect, and will be sticking around for the long haul. And now that the othersb know that one of them is hanging out with you, I'm sure they'll behave so they can be frozen, and meet you one day too! This is the start of a large family for you!

 

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