IF and the City

I used to feel sad when I watched the episodes with Charlotte failing over and over again while trying to get pregnant. Little did I know that my own attempts would lead me on the same sad journey. We've now passed 4 years in the trenches. 6 failed IVF/ICSI cycles = nothing. Time for something new - donor eggs. Success at last. Now for round 2.

Sunday, January 07, 2007

4 Days +Ve

Last night I had my best nights sleep since we got our positive news.

The main problem I'm experiencing is that my mind is racing - all day and all night.

I'm trying not to live in fear of what could go wrong, I figure that if things do go pear-shaped, worrying now is not going to cushion me. I learnt that following my miscarriage 3 1/2 years ago.

I've told both Mr. S and Star that getting these results is close to two weeks earlier than 'normal fertile people', so we have to be mindful of that, and be cautiously happy as we get through the next few weeks.

I have a follow-up beta next Wednesday. I figured if I held out longer, hopefully we will see a nice rise.

My clinic says that with my levels they aren't worried about anything, but they know we all like the peace of mind.

I have to make an appointment for an ultrasound - 3 weeks from our blood test. My doctors office doesn't open till the 15th, so I'll get one then.

This morning the headache I'd had since last Wednesday, finally seems to have gone - apparently this is a common thing - due to increased blood flow.

Mr. S went to the chemist to get me some tablets -
'I checked with them what to get - I told them I needed something for my pregnant wife'
'HOW FUNNY! Did it seem strange saying that?'
'No, I liked being able to say it'


At January 07, 2007 5:45 pm , Blogger three minute palaver said...

Oh, Sparkle, I understand the nervousness and racing mind. It's really hard work being a pregnant infertile. I'm thinking of you and wishing your bloodwork on Wednesday is as sensational as the first test was and look forward to reading about an excellent U/S in 9 days time. I know it's early days, but I have all my fingers crossed for you.

[& my cousin had a baby in Nov 06 using a donor egg and I am really hoping for some of the same donor-egg-fabulousness for you too]

At January 07, 2007 9:51 pm , Blogger Lut said...

You're right, worrying now won't cushion you.
I'm trying to keep that in mind as I wait for our next attempt, but it's not working so well. :-/ I hope you manage better.

Fingers crossed for the next milestones!

At January 08, 2007 2:29 am , Anonymous Margo said...

I understand the nervousness. Waiting for the ultrasound was so hard for me, but you're right, worrying doesn't help anything. I am so excited for you Sparkle. I hope that the bloodwork on Wednesday and the subsequent ultrasound hold nothing but happy news for you.

At January 08, 2007 3:50 am , Blogger Millie said...

Here's to good sleep and no headaches. And contined good news on Wednesday. And all the rest.

At January 08, 2007 10:56 pm , Blogger Em said...

I remember that feeling that I could never relax. I so hope I get pregnant again because I wnat to do things different and have a bit more faith. The biggest thing I will say is resist the urge to consult Dr Google. I made myself so paranoid googling every little twinge and symptom (or lack of!).


Post a Comment

Subscribe to Post Comments [Atom]

<< Home