tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-149151292024-03-24T04:46:18.745+11:00IF and the CityI used to feel sad when I watched the episodes with Charlotte failing over and over again while trying to get pregnant. Little did I know that my own attempts would lead me on the same sad journey. We've now passed 4 years in the trenches. 6 failed IVF/ICSI cycles = nothing. Time for something new - donor eggs. Success at last. Now for round 2.Sparklehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03105677499048659242noreply@blogger.comBlogger184125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-14915129.post-30163781467993947052011-03-31T10:34:00.003+11:002011-03-31T10:36:19.020+11:00Guess who's in the middle of a cycle?YES - Star and I!<br /><br />Literally this been it since my last post - the possibility ... the plans made and scraped ... now we have finally reached the point of a new cycle. Our last.<br /><br />First scan this morning - 11 follicles on the right, 7 on the left. This news reported to me by Star - so no size range etc.<br /><br />Blood results later today.<br /><br />Scan and bloods for me tomorrow.<br /><br />Lord!Sparklehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03105677499048659242noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-14915129.post-27100608545016816802009-07-21T14:29:00.002+10:002009-07-21T14:34:24.802+10:00DecisionHas been made...<br /><br />We will be doing another cycle with Star at the new clinic.<br /><br />Our blood tests are updated, files transferred ... working on Star's ... phone consult with Star to happen next week. Bunch of other stuff, consent forms, possibly more counselling [yawn].<br /><br />Not many other details at the moment - other than we hope we do the cycle before the end of the year.<br /><br />This feels like the right thing to do, I guess some people might not agree, but it just would not be possible to cycle again at the same clinic, we have to change something.<br /><br />As usual it's not exactly straight forward, but we'll get there.<br /><br />I'm excited.Sparklehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03105677499048659242noreply@blogger.com7tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-14915129.post-10516709118879906012009-06-13T15:01:00.004+10:002009-06-13T15:21:50.415+10:00DetailWell blog it seems you have been of some great use to me recently.<br /><br />The documenting of my misery is exactly what I needed recently, where else did I provide so much detail of my IF and many failed cycles??? The absolute mundane detail to be frank.<br /><br />Our journey is not over. We are still determined to 'try' and have another child.<br /><br />Star said she was onboard with whatever we decided to do... how is it that some people are born with such an incredible amount of selflessness???<br /><br />In order to find out if this is a viable option, we decided to opt out of our 'rat in a cage' existence and seek another opinion. From the competition.<br /><br />Hence the value in all the mundane detail.<br /><br />We had some incredible luck, the high-brow lady doctor who conducted all our inside-and-out testing <em>prior</em> to embarking on our donor journey had cancellations that enabled us to see her virtually immediately.<br /><br />Her view is that Star is (and always has been) an ideal donor. Her age - under 30, her proven fertility (her own children), the good egg nos. via IVF (8 and 12), our success (BabyG).<br /><br />She believes that both cycle protocols were good (proven by the egg nos.), she also concurred that the Antagonist Protocol (last used), is fast becoming the protocol of choice (as advised by my own RE). She said the old thinking was that it was a last-ditch with 'mature' patients, but anecdotally they are getting equally good results as with the long-suppression, and it is also the protocol that patients prefer.<br /><br />Interestingly she said that Star being on stims for both 8 days and 12 days was not an issue in terms of egg quality. She said they are triggering patients at 7 days(!) and getting good results.<br /><br />Where she believes we have suffered is with poor laboratory conditions (all embryos lost on day 3!!!). In her words 'an RE is only as good as the lab and scientists in the clinic'.<br /><br />She said that in a situation whereby a cycle will yield a fresh blastocyst to transfer and two to freeze, you were at a 70%+ chance of success. Yes this clinic is 'blastocyst and proud'. Because they have been doing blast transfers for more than 10 years she says 'we've gotten pretty good at it by now'.<br /><br />She agreed that if we were to cycle with her clinic she would change the stimulant if it made us feel better, but ihho, there was no difference between pure.gon and gona.lf.<br /><br />All interesting.<br /><br />Decisions will be made.Sparklehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03105677499048659242noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-14915129.post-73562909677688133382009-05-20T18:05:00.002+10:002009-05-20T18:12:35.197+10:00Ahhh yes about postingHello blog, you hideous timeline of my misery.<br /><br />Yes I have been deliberately ignoring you. I think I am now blaming you for all my failures.<br /><br />Here's a quick update of what I refused to tell you about about in more detail:<br /><br />FET<br />2 embies thawed<br />3-cell increased to 4-cells and 4-cell increased to 6-cells at time of transfer<br />2WW ... many symptoms real and/or imagined<br />F***ing negative<br /><br />Yes blog, it's all your fault that I am now left without any current chance of providing BabyG with a sibling.<br /><br />Here I am thinking we are putting ourselves in an ideal position and all goes to sh*t.<br /><br />Guess what? Star has offered to get onboard again with whatever we want to do.<br /><br />Well blog, I am yet to decide if I will keep you in the loop. I have much to do, many investigations, lots of decisions to make.<br /><br />I would, however, welcome any feedback to this current situation.Sparklehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03105677499048659242noreply@blogger.com5tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-14915129.post-21950453151558006892009-04-02T14:55:00.003+11:002009-04-02T15:16:12.814+11:00At a pointHumming along in that pocket of time known as 'pre-transfer'. <br /><br />Taking the pill, now trying to get rid of the yeast infection courtesy of my last failed cycle. Ick. <br /><br />My Fertility Goddess tells me I'm 'full of fungus' so has also prescribed a trilogy of herbs so foul-tasting I have to trasnfer them into gel capsules before taking. That way my chemical drugs take care of the wiping out the gross symptoms and the herbal concoction works on the imbalance created within ... created by the chemicals I was taking for my cycle. <br /><br />Lord let's hope this two-pronged attack takes fast effect!<br /><br />In the meantime I've paid a visit to my RE's office and had a chat with regards to 'options and plan b's'. As far as jumping back into the egg-sharing program off-shore, the new developments are that the waiting time has reduced by more than 6 months. Sooo if we decided to proceed, we would only need to wait around 3 months!<br /><br />In the opinion of the RE's off-sider this should be the last option we pursue. She believes that to have one child via a known donor and one via anonymous would not be ideal for the one who would never be able to find out who the donor was. <br /><br />I have to agree with her.<br /><br />But, she did say if we did get to the point where we wanted to proceed, we could seek some counselling help on how to deal with those issues and proceed.<br /><br />First things first. She doesn't believe that because we haven't had an embryo stick around that from this cycle, it doesn't mean that one of the last two won't. She is of the opinion (she's a scientist), that most cycles will yield 1 or 2 embryos that will go on to implant. The expectations that if you have 12 embryos that all of them will become take home babies is ludicrous. <br /><br />The other thing she says is ... if Star were to offer to go again we should think very seriously about it. We clearly have not had that discussion, and as we discussed, why would we - we're not at the end of the road yet. She says that we have to remember we have BabyG - so clearly there are good fertility chances. <br /><br />Being the scientist that she is, she is in agreement with me on thawing both remaining embryos. She asked me what I would do if they thawed both and at transfer I was told both were fantastic .... 'I'm just hoping we get a call that an embryo has survived the thaw at this point!' I stammered.<br /><br />She reckons that only viable embryos are frozen, so there is as much chance of both of these doing well as any. In that case, well, we would prolly transfer one and re-freeze the other. <br /><br />We can only hope.Sparklehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03105677499048659242noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-14915129.post-80953123004909640032009-03-19T09:26:00.004+11:002009-03-19T09:38:35.438+11:00Next StepSo we begin again, our next cycle - a supposed back-to-back FET.<br /><br />Our schedule has me back on the bcp until the 8th April, then start sniffing.<br /><br />Call the clinic on my Day 1. bleed, then start progy*nova 3xdaily. Ultrasound 10/11 days later.<br /><br />So we'll be looking at a late-April transfer.<br /><br />My current state of thinking is to thaw the remaining 2 embryos and depending on how that goes put them both back. With the way things have gone, I cannot see both sticking, but, we may have a miracle one stick. I can't imagine going thru another transfer, it not working, and then have everything hinging on one 3-cell embryo.<br /><br />I'm worried about what to do next. I'm a Plan B. girl. I have none.<br /><br />Do I start looking for another donor now? Do I review all overseas options? Or do I let go the iron-clad control I feel the need to have and just see what happens with this next transfer THEN worry?<br /><br />I remember receiving a few disapproving comments when we started planning to grow our family a year ago. It threw me a little, because anyone that has been on this journey knows that there are no guarantees. Unfortunately I'm proof of that yet again. I'm not sure but is there a term that goes passed secondary, third or fourth levels of infertility?Sparklehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03105677499048659242noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-14915129.post-77432659328325755562009-03-13T19:27:00.000+11:002009-03-13T19:28:15.165+11:00And againCycle result = negativeSparklehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03105677499048659242noreply@blogger.com11tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-14915129.post-45046520287258825352009-03-06T19:29:00.004+11:002009-03-06T19:55:27.844+11:00One to goOne week down, one to go.<br /><br />Having doubts about the embie has helped me not get too obsessive.<br /><br />Had my acupuncture straight after this time, not my usual lady, MASSIVE headache finding someone. Ended up going somewhere completely new and close by the clinic. Seems they were v.traditional ... so much so they wanted me to go for the following 5 days. So I went that day, then the day after. Certainly did feel good those days, but since they didn't reduce the rate to accomodate GOING DAILY, I stopped and thought I'd go back to my lady if I wanted more [on the days she works].<br /><br />So nonchalant about this 2WW I nearly didn't bother going and getting my mid-2WW progesterone test. <br /><br />'Why bother?' I asked the nurse, 'Most clinics don't even do this test, and even if its low, BIG DEAL'!... Blah, blah... who cares... load of rubbish... whinge ... moan 'It's down to the embryo'.<br /><br />'Well' she politely advised me 'we just don't know what effect YOU have on an embryo once it's transferred, I mean we do pretty well at mimicking the uterine environment in the lab, but after all we don't know what happens once it's transferred'<br /><br />'Well yes that is true, but what I want to know is what the hell is going on with these young eggs?' - that thing happened when suddenly you blab what is really on your mind.<br /><br />'My own niece went thru IVF here, and we transferred two shocking looking embryos, her progesterone came back at 17 - now 14 weeks pregnant - one of them stuck'.<br /><br />'S-I-G-H'<br /><br />So, in my casual manner, I'd strolled in so late I wasn't going to get my result back the same day, and then later realised I also had totally forgotten to get extra messaries, since I'm going to run out before BT-Day.<br /><br />Back again this morning, messaries in hand, talking to one of the other nurses.<br /><br />'Well I had my blood test soooo late yesterday I didn't get the results, so you know, whatever ...'<br />'PLEASE call this afternoon and get your results'<br />'Okay, I'm sure its okay, even though it was low last time'<br />'Call this afternoon'.<br /><br />Come 3 o'clock I debate bothering, then ring.<br /><br />'Yeah, your progesterone is fine, so no need to increase messaries'<br />'Right-e-o, what is it?'<br />Paper shuffle 'Here it is ... gosh it's 105!' <br />'Thought it was okay - I've got heart-burn!'<br />'Really, well then, your BT is next Friday THE 13TH'<br /><br />So there you go little embie ... if you decide to stick around ... all ready for you!<br /><br />Nuh, don't think I'm going to have anything to do with pee sticks either.Sparklehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03105677499048659242noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-14915129.post-60079274814547971552009-02-27T09:41:00.003+11:002009-02-27T09:46:23.891+11:00DoneSoooo, no more phone calls.<br /><br />Legs in stirrups ...<br /><br />Scientist advises 'no cells lost or any fragmentation - embryo much better than last one'.<br /><br />Transfer is quick and easy.<br /><br />Nagging doubts ... cells hadn't started dividing again.<br /><br />Scientist says 'it's fine, normal'. <br />This is the embryo from a 26yo egg(!) Has to be in with a good shot ... right?<br /><br />Let's see. <br /><br />Acupuncture followed straight after. All the i's dotted and t's crossed.<br /><br />Nagging doubts ...Sparklehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03105677499048659242noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-14915129.post-17534366356206990072009-02-25T17:50:00.003+11:002009-02-25T17:59:05.451+11:00Busy... busyKeeping busy here in th' city ...<br /><br />Even so ...<br /><br />Missed a call first thing this morning ... scientist ringing to tell me everything was good and they'd see me tomorrow early afternoon. Call back if I need to know anything.<br /><br />Not in a million years am I calling back.<br /><br />In the park late this afternoon I hear my phone ringing and manage to pick it up just as its gone to voicemail 'unknown caller' READ: SCIENTIST FROM THE LAB<br /><br />Cold sweats ... life has suddenly gone slo-mo ... flashbacks to last thaw and the call first thing in the morning: EMBRYO ARRESTED.<br /><br />Breath ... HURRY UP F***** MESSAGE ...<br /><br />So then ... scientist calling to check that I knew I was coming in tomorrow for my transfer. No further information. <br /><br />Quickly call clinic - of course - receptionist has already scarpered for the day and the message is switched on.<br /><br />Now will have to call first thing in the morning.Sparklehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03105677499048659242noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-14915129.post-31705936287453768852009-02-24T13:15:00.002+11:002009-02-24T13:20:52.638+11:00Back AgainSo here we are.<br /><br />Following our cancelled cycle, following our cancelled cycle, we are now in the midst of an active cycle.<br /><br />Day 11 - after 8 days progy*nova and a few weeks of syna*rel, yesterday morning I had a scan. Lining 'perfect' translated to: 9C I *think* she said. So 9mm and the triple stripe??<br /><br />Yesterday afternoon I was told transfer would be Thursday.<br /><br />I checked with the nurse - 'we're not thawing all remaining embryos and going for blast are we?' <br />'No, that would have had to have been discussed and agreed upon'.<br />'Good'<br /><br />Yep that's the decision we made - thaw one at a time. I'd have to be put in a medically-induced coma to get thru thawing all three and seeing what happens going to blast. <br /><br />I have no idea when they thaw the first one ... I'm trying not to think about it.Sparklehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03105677499048659242noreply@blogger.com5tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-14915129.post-45493441610065285682009-01-20T15:42:00.004+11:002009-01-21T12:49:21.483+11:00Mumble .. mumble ...So now there are three in my mother's group who are officially pregnant. All safely passed the first trimester. Bated breath for those waiting to announce. It seems 1st birthday's were the signal to have another.<br /><br />The other day in the park, the conversation strayed into the now oh-so-boring mandatory mutterings about the global financial crisis or the GFC as its become [sarcastically] known in our home.<br /><br />Several people murmering about job losses, budget cuts, bleak futures. One who works for the so-called 'millionaires club' (pregnant) bemoaning what a crap outlook there was for the coming year.<br /><br />'I think you can pretty much write off the whole of this year'<br />'Yeah 2009 is going to be pretty miserable' agreed the other<br /><br />'Well its not going to be that miserable' I said 'you're having a baby!'<br />'Yeah!' said someone else ...<br />'Well that's not going to be that great ... the first six months are going to be awful'<br /><br />What can you say?<br /><br />Some people have only ever known what its like to have ALL their dreams come true.Sparklehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03105677499048659242noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-14915129.post-56411535781047650212009-01-15T09:20:00.002+11:002009-01-15T09:33:12.683+11:00Here's What It MeansTo culture frozen embryos.<br /><br />The scientist explained that it was suggested at our last FET because while our first embryo thawed okay, it then went on and 3 cells fused into one, suggesting an abnormality. Our second embie thawed okay and only lost one cell - but it didn't stick.<br /><br />So we have three remaining. <br /><br />The suggestion is that they thaw all three and then culture on to either day 3. or day 5. that way being in the best position to pick the strongest embryo to transfer.<br /><br />Yowza!<br /><br />So the risks are that when you thaw all the embies you are then exposing them to the lab conditions, potentially causing embies to arrest - and there being no way of knowing if those embies could have implanted if transferred earlier.<br /><br />The pros are that you could end up with say two of the embies going on to beoome high quality blastocysts and being in a position to make a decision on transferring the best and then having one to freeze. Thereby having the best chance of success.<br /><br />To me this means one thing - an all or nothing cycle.<br /><br />Problem is I don't have a back up if it doesn't work.<br /><br />Thawing and transferring one by one is the slower way, the more conservative, but the least risky in terms of losing embies.<br /><br />I think scientists take a more dispassionate view - they are looking for the fastest way to find the strongest embryo and have the maximum chance of success.<br /><br />Nagging in the back of my mind is ... we've never been lucky ... we transferred high quality blastocysts before (mine) and didn't get success - so no guarantee there ... we've never been lucky.<br /><br />I lie, we have been lucky, we have BabyG - but we had no other embies from that cycle - either to transfer or freeze. It was all or nothing with that one 4-cell embie. Wow that thinking has bought me full circle ... all or nothing worked once... shit...<br /><br />Thoughts?Sparklehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03105677499048659242noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-14915129.post-64999049307718819502009-01-12T18:16:00.003+11:002009-01-12T18:26:12.833+11:00WellHere we go again ... we're cancelled for January.<br /><br />We were attempting to do a Natural FET ... scan this morning showed 1 small follie and lining at 7mm on Day 10.<br /><br />Blood results unfortunately showed eostrogen to be too low - under 100 - so cycle is cancelled.<br /><br />Now I am to start immedicately on the bcp ... for the next 3 1/2 weeks then ... start the miserable synarel.<br /><br />The main positive to this is that it gives me a few more weeks with my new acupuncture goddess ... <br /><br />Don't know why I'm not more upset - have a feeling its all for the best.<br /><br />So February here we come!<br /><br />There's also a whole new dilemma with this culturing embies thing - too many pros and cons to go into right now.Sparklehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03105677499048659242noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-14915129.post-18197409735687368382008-12-30T10:42:00.002+11:002008-12-30T10:54:38.112+11:00Getting ReadyFor our next transfer.<br /><br />In the meantime Christmas was very nice. Very nice to be able to enjoy the food and a few drinks without worrying. Lovely to have BabyG in our lives and to have that joy of spending Christmas with your child. <br /><br />Such a painful time for many, my memories are still there of those feelings from the past.<br /><br />But I'm getting very nervous and scared in the lead up to our next transfer. My fears of it not working again, my fears that somehow it's all my fault, somehow my body is not allowing these embies to implant.<br /><br />In an effort to get my body in optimum shape, and try and get a handle on the stress, I've been to see a new acupuncturist. I love her. She was largely chosen due to her handy proximity to my home in a lovely Nature Centre. Also, since the CFG 'to the stars' told me that what she did was nothing special, I believe her. I also believe that dealing with immune issues, and infertility is at the heart of TCM. My new lady confirmed that. <br /><br />She's young, but been practising since 2001. Her acupuncture was a revelation. For one thing it wasn't the 20min. special I became used to. Also, she did acu all over my back. I've never had that before. My usual diagnosis/weakness was that I have weak kidney's. She prodded that point on my back 'yeeeeesssh that's sensitive' I told her. Then acu on my tummy followed by some mini moxi's. I floated out of the centre with another appointment booked for next week.<br /><br />She also thinks I should have some sessions with chinese massage intermittently. Not a bad idea.<br /><br />Not quite sure if it's a direct result - but my energy in the last few days has been awesome. I'm getting things done that have been hanging around a while.<br /><br />Next, waiting on my period.Sparklehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03105677499048659242noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-14915129.post-29804044325910002122008-12-02T12:25:00.002+11:002008-12-02T12:29:24.595+11:00OfficialOfficially negative.<br /><br />The clinic says that my chances are good with the 3 great embryos we have. The nurse said that we've gotten pregnant with these embryos before so it will happen again. <br /><br />Unfortunately no transfer in the near future. Due to my period not starting, (due to having to stay on the messaries waiting on my beta!) I will not get in before the Xmas closures.<br /><br />So another wait for me.<br /><br />Star can't understand why we haven't had any luck yet. Who knows? Is it bad luck?<br /><br />I haven't found out any more information on the 'culturing of embryos' that will be done next time. Guess I have time to google it.Sparklehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03105677499048659242noreply@blogger.com9tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-14915129.post-2032151636891990682008-11-29T11:09:00.002+11:002008-11-29T11:11:54.121+11:00PeestickThis morning ... negative.<br /><br />Had that feeling it wasn't to be the other day.<br /><br />Beta on Monday, will try and go again straight away if possible. Feel good about that actually. They're going to culture my embies this time. I have no idea what that means? This time I might put 2 back (if I have them).<br /><br />Beta still on Monday. Is there any point? Guess so - the clinic needs to conclude the cycle officially.Sparklehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03105677499048659242noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-14915129.post-35942590017818585792008-11-24T15:18:00.002+11:002008-11-24T15:20:46.561+11:00New ThingSo my blood test this morning revealed that my progesterone is low = 21.<br /><br />Apparently this is nothing to be concerned about at this stage ... as if ... will not affect a potential pregnancy ... I have no idea.<br /><br />I told her I hadn't put my morning's messary in - since I was going to the clinic early - but she reckons that wouldn't have affected my results.<br /><br />Soooo, I am to up my messaries to 3 x daily now.<br /><br />Kinda taken the wind out of my sails ... <br /><br />BTW, my beta isn't till next Monday.Sparklehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03105677499048659242noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-14915129.post-43609701656897295232008-11-17T15:16:00.002+11:002008-11-17T15:22:44.939+11:00Transfer ..Well we transferred ... our 2nd embie did much better and had only lost 1 cell, had stabilised, no fragmentation. Looked pretty good on the screen.<br /><br />Transfer was quick and without incident.<br /><br />This is not the ideal transfer in terms of being a blastocyst, but it's good enough for me to feel hopeful. I'm proof positive that transferring hatching blasts is no guarantee of a positive result (umm try 3 or 4 with my own embies). <br /><br />I asked the scientist and doctor ...'do many women get pregnant with embies like these?', 'lots, we wouldn't transfer if we didn't'. Good.<br /><br />Passed a million pregnant women on my way ... lucky them.Sparklehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03105677499048659242noreply@blogger.com8tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-14915129.post-33521943118487882322008-11-17T08:41:00.005+11:002008-11-17T08:56:32.297+11:00BAD UpdateIn this gig, apparently from the point of thaw, not hearing anything is what you want.<br /><br />We got a call at 7am this morning ...<br /><br />Our embie fused back to 2-cells overnight instead of continuing to divide. Exactly the wrong thing.<br /><br />Sooo, we now move to thawing another ...<br /><br />There will be no update from here on in, we will find out how things have gone when we get to the clinic.<br /><br />Of course Mr. S says all the wrong things - firstly - 'well shouldn't we be waiting overnight again?' and 'it'll all be alright, don't worry'.<br /><br />Empty meaningless words - why are men SO STUPID????<br /><br />This is all a sickening flashback to our last cycle - all our embies going nuts ... ugh I have that nauseous, pins and needles feeling that comes with anxiety.<br /><br />POOH!Sparklehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03105677499048659242noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-14915129.post-17956759799172428212008-11-16T15:29:00.002+11:002008-11-16T15:32:47.756+11:00Small BIG updateEmbryo has thawed, transfer going ahead tomorrow as planned.<br /><br />That leaves us 24 hours ... embryo should continue to divide IF WE'RE LUCKY.<br /><br />Have no idea at this point if it was the first embryo they tried to thaw, or if it took more than one.<br /><br />This period of time feels like the waiting time to find out about fertilisation!<br /><br />The drive to the clinic will be nerve-wracking!Sparklehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03105677499048659242noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-14915129.post-77470572528827464372008-11-14T15:05:00.003+11:002008-11-14T15:12:28.076+11:00Good to Go!Scan this morning showed endometrium at 8.5 with the triple stripe ... apparently good to go!<br /><br />Just got a (missed) call and the clinic nurse says I'm to start the messaries tonight and come in on Monday for transfer at 1.15pm!<br /><br />I've rung back for more details ... when do you start thawing ... what if this ... what if that ... I've never done a frozen transfer before!<br /><br />...How come I'm going to be transferring on my Day 13??? Is this because I've been sniffin' and therefore my cycle doesn't need to be matched up??? I don't know the answers to any of these things ... I thought my embie is to match a regular ovulation and fertilisation?????<br /><br />I am only going to be transferring 1, that decision is made.<br /><br />Lord how can a veteran of sooo may cycles ... be such a novice when it comes to a frozen transfer???? <br /><br />Hey - guess I'm a newbie!Sparklehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03105677499048659242noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-14915129.post-89988775135058537862008-11-06T15:25:00.002+11:002008-11-06T15:29:20.044+11:00Day 2.So officially FET cycle is underway.<br /><br />I've been sniffing syna*rel since the 28th, ugh!<br /><br />On Sunday I start on the progy*nova, and next Friday go into the clinic for a scan to check my lining.<br /><br />I've been seeing the Alternative Fertility Goddess for the past few weeks and she's telling me that everything is okley dokley.<br /><br />HmmmmSparklehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03105677499048659242noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-14915129.post-29452143121458363122008-10-15T16:54:00.004+11:002008-10-16T09:54:31.265+11:00I've Met HerYou know how you still hold out hope that IVF will work, even when you've hit the single digit percentages? I mean, you reason, it must work for someone or it would simply be a zero.<br /><br />Well since I've become a mother, I've met someone who validates the stats.<br /><br />Trying to get pregnant for 18 months without any success. At 43 told to hurry up and do an IVF cycle, since the clinic hadn't gotten anyone pregnant over that age.<br /><br />One cycle = bfp<br />Also = 1 blast in the freezer (this clinic, <em>my old clinic</em>, will not freeze unless they think the embryo is going to be viable when thawed)<br /><br />I stared at her in disbelief. <br />I mean if there was such a thing as a travelling IF circus - she would be the star attraction right?<br /><br />'How many cycles did YOU do'? she asked me<br />'Six' <em>(plus 2 with a donor</em>)<br />'Wow, I was done with it after one'<br /><br />Add to that the decision not to do an amnio - 'because the results were irrelevant'. Her baby is without any health issues whatsoever.<br /><br />I would never have believed it was possible. Now I know different. Jeez it's difficult not to feel hard done by, when you started and finished younger and got no success at all. Nothing. Never even to freeze.<br /><br />I'm not even sure a story like this serves as hope - it's just too damn unbelievable to me. It's nice to actually meet someone almost to prove the validity of the stat table, because I have to say I wouldn't have believed it possible.<br /><br />I'll have to suspend my disbelief, because I think in the not-too-distant future she is planning on doing an FET with that blast.Sparklehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03105677499048659242noreply@blogger.com5tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-14915129.post-88786065582833744052008-10-10T14:36:00.002+11:002008-10-10T14:56:56.697+11:00My VisitTo the OFG went very well.<br /><br />A cheerful greeting and catch up followed. BabyG was very well looked after by her assistant.<br /><br />While I was waiting a man who clearly had many problems (both physical and mental), had just finished his treatment. As he was paying and talking to the OFG assitant I noticed he was only paying a third of the usual fee. Ahh I thought, the OFG does a reduced rate for those in serious need of help. <br /><br />OFG is a chiro*practor and osteo*path as well as a kinesi*ologist.<br /><br />After some tapping and counting on my raised left arm, OFG pronouced that 'yes I'm getting that you will have another baby'.<br /><br /><em>'Lord don't toy with me' I thought.</em><br /><br />'Well actually, you always said that I'd have more than one before' I remembered.<br /><br />More tapping <em>all over</em>, tongue to the roof of my mouth, then to the back of my mouth, then touched by my finger. Ears, head, back swished. Raising and lowering of legs. Roll over. Speck of blood taken from my hand. Hey, now I remember all of this.<br /><br />My hormones were out (err yeah, and I've got a headache to prove it), my pelvis was out (interesting).<br /><br />'Yeah well, my transfer has been cancelled' I told her 'I'm not worried about it, because I don't feel ready right now'.<br />'No, you're not ready at the moment'.<br /><br />She then went on to tell me that I'd come at a good time, because in a couple of weeks she's off to Hawaii for a conference with updated training in <em>cranial *sacral*therapy</em>, think that's what it was called. So that's what it is.<br /><br />So now I'm going back again next week for more.<br /><br />I like the OFG, I like that she believes in me. I like that she looks after the very needy. I've done alot of different things in my pursuit of parenthood. At least she's not charging me hundreds of dollars each week and making me drink putrid tea.Sparklehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03105677499048659242noreply@blogger.com0